A little Intro...

Photo Credit: Ashleigh Mello - Instagram

In 2016 my life was flipped on it's head. A 10 years relationship was whipped from beneath my feet overnight (what a guy!!!). The life I currently knew was no longer mine, and the prospects of starting over were damn right terrifying.
Events that followed over the next few months only exacerbated those fears.. I did what I could to stay afloat. Seemingly a default setting of someone my age I was also suffering from anxiety and a severe lack of self confidence. (Stay with me, I promise i'm not a complete mood hoover!)
As someone who has always been super ambitious, to suddenly feel so lost is a scary feeling. I didn't know which way to turn, or what the next step looked like.

One thing I knew was that despite not knowing which direction I wanted to turn, or what the next chapter of my life looked like,  I refused just to stay still.
I started signing up for challenges... Sky dives, marathons and even signed up to return to college on an evening course.

Everytime I set myself these goals, tasks and sometimes absurdities, I was faced with the same questions from those around me -
" How on earth are you going to do that". My go to response was always W I N G I N G   I T !!
Even with medals in hand and a new diploma added to  my bank of qualifications, I still hadn't figured out which direction I wanted to head. I just knew I was winging it back to me.

I learnt the most about myself during these challenges. As someone who is a big worrier (the kind that worries that they have nothing to worry about somedays.... * there must be something*!!) I learnt to challenge my natural tendencies to worry, and turn them into excitement and intrigue.
One of the biggest challenges for me is to stop feeling like a situation has to be perfect before giving it a go. Embracing that fumbling through the unknown can sometimes be the most exciting part, where you gain the most personal growth and the incredible places it can take you.

One thing that has kept popping up over  the last few years was to restart a blog; a place to express my thoughts and experiences. Not to mention a place to document the somewhat hilarious dating experiences I was having.  I kept putting it off for the very fear of it not being perfect. For the fear of what people would say, and what people think. Well guess what.... that fear is being turned into that excitement and intrigue I've been working on. 2020 and turning 30 has kick started the year of getting s*** done.
So here I am Winging It through and seeing where life takes me next.

Have you had a similar experience where you've held yourself back for so long and then all of a sudden you get a burst of inspiration?